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im single!

I know this ain’t a real life issues section or whatever but still i kinda need help.
You see, there has to be something wrong with me cause i feel there is i mean, i like this person right, and we use to go too the same school and now we don’t but yeah and well even though we are not in the same school i still kind of like him. I mean sure on the day of leaving the school i wanted to tell him that i liked him but unfortunately failed to do so.
Now i have a new school life and everything and at first i was like YAY i ain’t gonna like him no more i can totally forget about him and yeah it was like that for like the fist few months even at the start of this year i made my new years’ resolution to be:
a) Work hard in subjects i have.
b) Totally forget about the guy i liked. For good
c) Not to fall for any guys cause it’s kind of torture at times( cause i’m not allowed t date anyone not till I’m like 19 or 20 i think a couple years to go then.)
Anyway in school he kinda gave signals that he might have had feelings for me too, but i dono i was never good at sorta reading into stuff like that. and i couldn’t tell him i liked him that i liked him not until the end cause of the fact i’m not allowed to go out with anyone. I mean that’s fine if the guy don’t like me and all i can live,but if he does then it’s torture at times. I mean you can’t just ignore those feelings or push them aside right? but yeah i still do. I’m nearly 18 so and i still totally suck at this whole love thing but, all i wana know is (after giving a log essay about the problem) how do you stop liking a guy. Cause all i feel every time is stupid. I’ve added this guy as a friend on this online chat thingy and well i hardly ever go there and if i said something to him it would look odd cause well i hardly talk to anybody on it and if i suddenly startedtalking to him everyone else would be like ‘wat’s that about?’ you know. Oh and by the way i really didn’t want anybody knowing about my crush on him cause:
a) I was a bit shy
b) loads of girls liked him. I dono i think he was a flirt.
c) he was a bit of a trouble maker but sometimes sweet.
d) every time time i told my closest friends i liked him, they were like ‘Really? oh my God you’re joking. Tell the truth…’ that kinda thing. I mean they didn’t expect me to like a guy like him.
Who by the way did a a lot of swearing. i kinda hated that. so yeah.
And at times i like him and i hate him i mean I hate him cause of the fact i like him
I hate cause of the fact he makes me feel stupid
I hate him cause he makes me feel miserable case of liking him
I hate him cause he wont get out of my brain
I hate having crushes in general
When everything is good he talks to you blah blah blah.. etc your like over the moon
But at times you hate yourself cause you feel stupid for liking him and get mad at yourself for doing something stupid in front of him then hate him for making you hate yourself for feeling stupid and hate him for making you do the stupid thing you did in front of him cause you were nervous. Then i feel miserable
I just wana stop having crushes in general i mean my life would be so much easier. Why isn’t there a button that stops you from liking ppl i mean it would be awesome if there was something like that. I just want to stop liking guys till i’m like 20 or something then i’ll be happy. so if there is anybody who knows what to do that could you please help me cause, i’ve had enough of this really. thanx
Oh and also does anybody know any good romantic comedy anime from the 1990s other than sailor moon and wedding peach and stuff like that? oh and fushigi yugi too.
Also any good cute romantic comedy dramas from Korea or Taiwan or Japan or China etc. I’ve run out of stuff to watch.

Throwing a little question about anime at the bottom of that giant paragraph listing your problems with your lovelife doesn’t make it a comics and animation question. I’m pretty sure they have a category for this type of question though, so if you want a good answer to that I’d repost.